Every year I say to myself I’m going to be good about blogging and every year I fail miserably. This year is going to be different though. I am 100% committed to keeping up with blogging and updating the world on my life. Chances of people reading slim to non, chances of people caring… just about zero. However, maybe someday someone will care and think to take a look at this. Regardless 2013 is a year for me, I’m done with the bull shit and I’m done getting walked all over. The times I need to write it out I will… right here. So stay tuned because chances are it’s going to be a bumpy ride.
I have always been an incredibly positive person and had no problem viewing the glass shelf full, the empty concept has been foreign to me. However, in the past few months looking at things with an optimistic spin has become increasingly difficult. It could be the transition into college life and being “homesick” but living 4 minutes away makes the home sick theory completely invalid. What I think it is, is that I am friend sick. In high school I had my core friends, my girls, they were there for me no matter what. Here I don’t have that and it is getting harder each day. Being alone is a lot harder than I had ever imagined and finding those people you just clique with is something I took advantage of for way too long. So perhaps it is me, but perhaps it is them. So today, instead of being a whiny little bitch about it I am going to put a fucking smile on my face, hide behind it, and kill em with kindness. On the bright side it’s a week until thanksgiving and then 2 until christmas… and what can solve a problem better than a little holiday cheer?